2003-11-27 - 10:35 p.m.
I'm sitting here listening to a cover of time after time done by rob thomas of matchbox 20, off of a cd Erika made me. She's great, always sending me random cds. I'd send her more too, but my burner is out of commission right now. It eats cds and makes a high pitched whining noise. But yeah, Erika rules. And her birthday (21 baby!!) is coming right up quick. As well as Sarahs and my dads, and mike's too....since his is the same day as my dads, and i swear thats the only reason i remember that.
I have such a headache. I think it's because I haven't had any caffine today. At least thats what I hope. I wasn't drinking coffee for so long...but it ended up falling back in my lap. It's a nice addiction. Could be much worse, especially with my family history.
I'm home for thanksgiving break. I don't really like it. Home that is, not break. I love not having to go to classes for a few days. It's pretty nice. I still have a huge paper and a project due when I get back...but for tonight, it's time to just fart around.
"I think you are blind to the fact that the hand you hold is the hand that holds you down."
More of the 3AM cd erk made me...you know how it is.
I got home later than I wanted to on Tuesday. I told Matt I'd drive hime home, and I really didn't mind waiting for him to get out of class. It left me time to pack and take a shower and visit with April, which is all good. I got lost on the way home though, and spent an hour on the back roads with no hint of civilization besides houses (all with their lights off). It was really weird, and I got scared. I knew I would eventually find some way either to a main road, or back to his house. But still, at nine at night on the back roads of a strange town, realism doesn't always hold in your brain. And I didn't have his number to call him if I found a sketchy payphone anyway. It turned out all right though. By some act of wonderful providence, I found his road, and drove on that until I found his house...And he had me follow him until I could find my way out. I felt like such a fool when I went up to his door and his whole family looks out at me and starts laughing. It wasn't that they were laughing AT me, I just felt foolish having to go back and ask for help, for him to drive me out so I didn't get lost again. He didn't seem to mind, but who knows. He's a really great person, I just don't know why he puts up with me sometimes; especially now when my sched is so crazy. It's too bad I met him at this point of my life. But I'm glad I did all the same. I hope things will be all right, no matter how they turn out. I'd like fate to be on my side this time though, as much as it is to ask. At least for him not to meet some amazing girl while he's with me then drop me for her. I don't think i'd like to go through that a fifth time.
The radio station rules. Thats my last comment of the night. Thought it'd be a nice note to end on. The exec board works hard, and we always seem to have a good time. Music. Is. Good.
