2003-01-18 - 10:45 p.m.
Blah Blah Blah.:)
Erika! I didn't know you were onyl going to be home for friday night! im sorry - went out to dinner with the family that night. to "celebrate" ashley being home or something. hrmm, anyone else feel that chill?
so home sucks, but im really not looking forward to going back to school. i dont know what i wanna do anymore...i cant really fake this english major thing anymore. i can't write worth a damn, and its not something im doing all the time, so that should probably be a clue eh? But im going back, getting rid of requirements, and im out on the hunt again i guess. ill probably transfer and go into communications. its the only thing i can really see myself being involved with and enjoying myself. of course, i'd be a hyopcrite since i hate television. lol. RIGHT. i dunno, i'll figure it out. Or work at HomeGoods for the rest of my life. either way... ;) im always saying this same thing aren't i? lol...i should just get off my duff and do it! ya! geeez...
i know im going to sound like a spoiled brat when i say this - but you gotta understand, im not as spoiled as this sounds. up until now, i really havent had to worry about my money too much. not that my dad ever helped me out before, its just i never needed quite as much cash as i do now. i have to pay for my books, and my car needs the 60000 tune-up. i can't afford both right now. so im buying books and forgoing the tuneup until i can afford it i guess. this morning it was so cold the cd player wouldn't turn on. lol, at least im TELLING myself it was the cold that was doing it and not my worn-out battery. lol. just gotta make it back to f-town and itll be all right. :)
*sigh...i know i keep complaining about it - but i really don't know what i wanna do in my life. i have no real passion for anything, at least not anything that would be a real job. i dont have the talent to do anything that has a limited entry...i just gotta figure it out. i'm still young, i guess. even when i feel old as hell. haha. yeah, im cool. my life isnt bad, i wanna be clear about that. i know my problems are petty, its all right. just gotta vent the little stuff once and while. :) i know you all missed my wit anyway. ;) Riiiiiiiight.
