2008-10-25 - 11:23 a.m.
Holy crap.
I was just reading some of my past entries and I have no idea what I was talking about sometimes.
Appearently in college I let boys completely run my life. Whether there were a plethora or choices or a few lame ones hanging around that weren't even actually interested; getting a boy to like me was my only goal when I was 20 by looking at those entires. Yikes. I really should have no wasted so much time on those losers.
I was looking at a survey I filled out 5 years ago. Literally 5 years ago TO THE DAY. That's scary. I was talking about how I would be out of Maine, living in a city and doing something with music, living this glamourus life. Uh huh.
My life has been pretty damn good recently, but it's definitely not like I pictured it 5 years ago. I'm living out in the middle of nowhere with my boyfriend of 4 years. 4 YEARS. That's insane. I hate Hollis, but sometimes it's ok. It blows my mind that Chris and I have been together for so long. I can't imagine not being with him; he's like another arm or something. There are times still when I'd rather be single & selfish of course. But it's all working out all right. For right now.
I am working in the music industry, which also blows my mind. I'm now getting paid to work in radio. INSANE! I'm a real live commercial DJ on every Monday - Friday from 7- Midnight. INSANE x100!! Sometimes I get frsutrated beyond belief with the people I work with, and the different levels of responsiblity of my job, but it's still worth it to go in every day. And yes, there are times when I'm working every day. I'm always checking my work e-mail. There are no such things as real vacations in radio. YEsterday I was off, but a salesperson still sent me an e-mail after 5 p.m. (on a Friday!) asking me to put stuff in the van for a remote this morning. I definitely didn't do it since I was out of town. I was completely offended. I'm still offended, and I feel like a slacker for not taking care of it.
Life is hard! And awesome!
My lovely Erika is still one of my favorite people in my life and I'm so happy we've come so far in our friendship. We've known each other for more than half of our lives and that's INSANE x 1110000011000! And I don't know where I'm going with this...I'm just a happy person and I wanted to share while I'm happy. Because far too many of my entries are me mad, upset, frustrated, etc. And while I may well me agitated right now, I'm well aware of how good my life is.
Thank you to everyone in my life who makes it worth living. You're wonderful!
